Maybe, just maybe, this has something to do with it.
As I prepare for a return to the States after my long absence I feel rather ambivalent about what awaits me: an intense and under-handed character assassination campaign against Barack Obama, a monumental financial meltdown which I predicted over a year ago, and just the usual state of the States (as characterized by the article). I’ve become very comfortable with my liberation from the latter. In the middle of this I’m as poor as I’ve ever been and actually have to try and raise money from investors who might be considering their mattresses as the only safe place for their savings. And now I return. My timing is impeccable!
As I’ve told my parents and others, I will not live in America except on my own terms, those terms being the requirements of a truly free man. In 21st century America is it only possible to live as a free man, as a free African-American man, as a rich man. Otherwise, one is much too beholden, at least for my temperament, to those who ultimately owe their position to subterfuge and the noose. I will have no master. So I will not stay, unless I am either on the road to riches or have arrived. Furthermore, if Obama loses, regardless of my circumstance, I will be looking for another homeland to lay my head, at least on a part-time basis. This too I have vowed, to my family and others. I am sure that his defeat will mean the continuation of a long slow decline of a country that once held the greatest promise the world had yet seen.
Conversely, if Obama wins? If he wins? I’ve found myself curiously and deeply sucked into the outcome of this presidential campaign. This is not due to Obama himself, I’ve never been a fan of the democractic party orthodoxy and he is nothing if not an orthodox democrat, but because what is at stake and what he represents. Yes, as he so often seeks to remind us, Obama represents change for the better. And hope. As I promised my friend Cameron last night, if Obama wins, if he wins… I will dance in the street.